What is it? How do I deal with it? Why me?

What is it?

I am clearly, to a degree both empathic and telepathic. This does not mean I’m a good judge of character, clearly, or perhaps that I often ignore warning signs and my better judgement, I can think of more than one occasion that this has happened. I’m just going to have to suspend my disbelief here, and approach this as calmly and rationally as I can, because the fact is that yes, I must also have some mental health problems, and I do think that the two go hand in hand. But the fact is what I’m doing now isn’t working. I need to find a better way to deal with this so I can live my life without it affecting me.

Pros

• Good at my job because I can read people
• Good lover (I’ve had the reviews haha)
• Can potentially be aware of my nearest and dearest without having to be physically close
• Could develop my….abilities (for lack of a better word) to help heal and calm others.

Cons

• Sleepless nights
• Mood imbalances – possibly actually feeling others’ emotions. Which absolutely gets my goat, cause one of the symptoms of schizophrenia is exactly this.
• Dizzyness
• Transparently there is the possibility of psychic attacks or damaged auras or whatever hippy crap goes with this.
• It’s a shit superpower. I’d rather have fireballs.

I need to find others, genuine, honest people with a lot of integrity who know how to cope with this, and can explain it to me without the incense and the paisley and the tree-hugging.

Give it to me straight. Let’s keep it as rational as possible, even though it’s anything but. But I know my world has just become a little bigger, a little scarier, and a lot more dangerous.

(Note: if you’re going through something similar, I’ve found a website I can stomach here)